| Setting myself up. again and again. |
[18 Apr 2009|01:21am] |
Why has it been so hard for me to let go? What am I still clinging to and whatever it may be, why?
I have gone over hundreds of different scenario's inside my head. What if i did this, what if I do that...
WHAT will it matter?
Make yourself happy.
You're really all you've got.
If I can do that much I think i'll be okay...
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[14 Dec 2008|03:54pm] |
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Let go.
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| FANTASTIC! |
[07 Dec 2008|02:47pm] |
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I think punching him in the face would make me feel absolutely fabulous!
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[25 Oct 2008|01:10am] |
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I have never felt so utterly alone in my entire life.
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[16 Oct 2008|11:47pm] |
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How do you get past the heartache from someone you've planned your whole life around, someone you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with...how do you get past not only the fact that they decided they didn't want you, but also decided you weren't good enough and found someone better while they were still with you. I am left with a broken heart, I have cried about it this whole week, I can't sleep. I can't eat. I go out places and break down. I beg for him back KNOWING its a lost cause but still holding out that ounce of hope that maybe JUST maybe...
And where is he? On the other end. Unphased. Like I was nothing, Like our relationship meant nothing to him.
Caring Isn't a weakness, its a strength...but I feel weak because I can't MAKE you care.
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| little lord fauntleroy |
[14 Oct 2008|10:13pm] |
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So, being heart broken the past three days I decided I needed a change....so, I cut all my hair off.
Bad, bad idea...
NOW, not only did my boyfriend decide to cut off all communication with me and tell me we're over...
I also have a REALLY, really bad hair cut...somewhat resembling the berries and cream guy;
Here comes the tears!
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| All Flowers In Time Bend Towards The Sun. |
[12 Oct 2008|10:49pm] |
Keep it going in me, wicked traveller
Fading farther from me
With your face in my window glow
Oh When will you weep for me sweet willow
It's okay to be angry
But not to hurt me
Your happiness, yes yes yes
Darling, darling
All flowers in time bend towards the sun
I know you say there's no one for you, but here is one
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| 3 days... |
[16 Aug 2008|04:04pm] |
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Lover, You Should've Come Over-Jeff Buckley |
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I'm packing to leave.
But I'm leaving my heart here.
Somehow I know things aren't gonna be the same....
All I can do is pray that everything works out.
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| Can We? Its hard to say.. |
[02 Aug 2008|10:20pm] |
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The Cure/From The Edge... |
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CAN'T WE LIVE WITHOUT INSECURITIES?
CAN'T WE LEARN TO LOVE OUR FLAWS?
CAN'T WE FIND A WAY TO JUST BE HAPPY WITH WHO WE ARE AND WHAT WE HAVE?
Please...someone, tell me its possible, otherwise I don't think I'm gonna make it.
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| So... |
[28 Jun 2008|02:27pm] |
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mood |
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Happy Birthday To Me!
Another year...
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[17 May 2008|06:38pm] |
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elliott smith//lost and found |
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If it was meant to happen, it will.
If not, atleast I'll have the satisfaction of knowing I tried.
i'm still keeping my fingers crossed.
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| Locked. |
[22 Apr 2004|09:57pm] |
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Jeff Buckley |
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Private.
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